There are stories that are not written to make an impact.

They are written so that someone who reads them can say: “I am not alone”.

This is a part of mine.

After an eight-year relationship —comfortable, respectful, but one in which I completely forgot about myself— we decided to end it. We were living in Tenerife and, when we broke up, I literally felt like I had lost an arm and a leg. It was devastating.

However, instead of staying still, I decided to do something that was calling me from within: I kept the van we shared and went alone to Fuerteventura. My idea was clear: to have a retreat with myself, to process what I had experienced, and to understand what I needed to learn from that breakup.

Very shortly after, surfing and a new relationship completely shook me. And although that story started strongly, something in me knew I hadn’t transformed yet. I saw myself repeating patterns, feeling the same as before… just on another island, in another story. So, true to my intuition, I made a radical decision: to leave everything to find myself.

I temporarily sold my life: left the van on the mainland, entrusted my kittens to a friend, ended the relationship, and went alone for four months to Maldives and Indonesia.

The trip was an old dream. What I didn’t know was that I was going to come face to face with all my shadows.

There, amidst paradisiacal landscapes, a raw solitude appeared. I realized I was no longer that Mar who befriended anyone. Empty conversations and ephemeral connections no longer fulfilled me. I was empty inside, tired, lost.

In that silence, I encountered many unprocessed griefs.

Not only the one for my ex-partner —whom I didn’t miss from love, but from support— but also the deep grief of a family breakup that I had silently carried. I realized I had distanced myself so much that I literally lived alone, in a van, on an island. And that… weighed heavily.

From Maldives, without family, without an ex-partner, without my new partner, without my animals, I began to have panic attacks and thoughts that scared me. I felt so alone that I even questioned whether life made sense like this.

I thought of that phrase from the movie Into the Wild:

“Happiness is only real when shared.”

And I had no one to share anything with.

I returned to Spain urgently. And thanks to the fact that I had already created my team and my business with Ringana, I could afford the flight, therapy, and support myself for two months during which I wasn’t even able to turn on the computer.

That was my hardest fall. But also, the beginning of everything.

The first light came from something I never thought I would embrace: medication. The psychiatrist prescribed me anxiolytics, and it was the first time I lived —literally— in a body without anxiety. And then I saw it:

My depression wasn’t just sadness. It was the chronic exhaustion of living so many years from self-demand, forced independence, control. From an extreme masculine energy that had disconnected me from myself and had robbed me of peace.

It was then that a promise was born:

I am going to return to this state. But without pills. From the body. From my energy. From me.

Since then —this was in August 2023— I haven’t stopped studying, experimenting, and training in everything related to regulating the nervous system and returning to a state of internal security and real well-being.

I trained in:

• More than 150 hours of yin yoga and somatic yoga

• multiple courses on somatic therapy, vagal toning, breathing, touch, nervous system

• obsessive reading of books about anxiety, the vagus nerve, trauma, and feminine energy

And above all, I have understood that:

• it’s not just about healing anxiety,

• it’s about living differently.

About stopping the push, living beyond the mind and doing.

About remembering that we can exist from the body, the feeling, presence, and pleasure.

🌸 I’m telling you this because…

Maybe you’re exhausted too.

Maybe you’re in that phase where everything is falling apart, or where nothing makes sense.

And I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with you.

You’re simply being called to be reborn.

Today, my life has changed.

I work from wherever I want, at my own pace, with an amazing team of women who are also on their journey.

I lead courses, create rituals, and above all, support women like you to get out of autopilot and return to themselves.

💌 How can I help you?

1. 🎧 Start with my free audio, a gentle practice to come back to yourself (ideal if you’re having a rough day).

2. 🌿 If you feel anxiety, distress, or constant stress, my course [SomaSafe] teaches you how to regulate your nervous system with real, simple, and effective practices.

It’s like a pill, but without chemicals. Just connection.

1. 🌱 And if you want to also transform your way of working and join a team that supports and inspires you, write to me. I’m happy to tell you how Ringana works and how you can get started.

Sometimes, the darkest moments come right before we light up again.

Thank you for reading me.

Thank you for being.

With love,
Mar